How I See It: Hello 2017
2016 was a year full of lessons for me. I spent most of the year trying to figure out who I was, where I wanted to go, and questioning what I was doing with this life. It was the first full year I spent away from my family. There were many nights spent staying awake, questioning every decision that lead me here.
It was a very difficult year – probably the most difficult I have ever experienced. It was both mentally and physically draining. It got to a point where I wasn’t sure what I was going to do, and how I was going to go on. Months would pass by where I didn’t write a single word, and I just didn’t have the energy or motivation to do it. I stopped reading; I let my hobbies fade away. I complained about everything, and I found myself showing hatred more than kindness. Sometimes we hit a brick wall, and I think 2016 was the year I finally hit mine.
The door that I opened a year ago is now closed, and I must say I am thankful for it. What 2017 will bring I am not sure. It might be better, or it might be worse. I am leaving 2016 a little bruised, but my heart has never been stronger.
Every day is another chance for us to do better, to be better. I plan to spend 2017 around the people who make me laugh and smile. I plan to set up some goals for myself and keep myself motivated.
My hope for 2017 is the same for every year – more love, and less suffering. If there is one thing I wish I could change, it would be to eliminate all suffering. I hate that we lose the ones we love too soon, and that we watch other suffers for too long. It isn’t fair, it never has been fair. I wish I could draw that line.
Medicine is what I like to call an imperfect science. There are millions of lives on the line to science and medicine. There is a huge gap between what we know, and what needs to be done. I hope this gap closes – even a little bit.
It doesn’t take a genius to understand that it’s not economical to cure every disease known to mankind. It’s the reality. Finding a medical cure for just about anything is not easy. But I do believe in technology much more than medical research. Just look how far it’s come in the last five years. Ten years ago my flip phone was one of the best products to hit the market… and look at it now. To me technology is economical, and it’s thriving.
I hope modern medicine, and technology come together more in the new year because there is so much opportunity to help millions of people live longer, healthier lives. With more technological improvements, and millions of investments in medical research, what else do we need?
No matter what anyone tells me, I am going to continue to believe in myself, believe in the doctors, and trust that there is going to be a treatment in the future. I have no other choice because I cannot live my life feeling completely defeated every single day. It will kick me to the ground, and hold me there if I don’t fight. There are plenty of negatives in the world, plenty of struggles we must overcome on a daily basis. There are plenty of disappointments, and so much against you.
But I believe. And to me, that is enough.
Trust me when I say this, we are much stronger than we imagine. Each day you live, each day that you survive – it is not your medicine that is keeping you here. It’s not all the remedies you take. It’s your bravery that is keeping you here.
So here’s to a new year. A fresh start. A new chapter waiting to be written.
Ivana was born in Sanski Most, Bosnia & Herzegovina but moved to Canada at the age of 3. She was diagnosed with LGMD a few years ago and it has forever changed her life. She is a regular contributor and her blogs will be everything she has learned along the way and what she continues to learn today. Read Ivana’s personal blog at: www.loveivana.com